Somewhere Between Bittersweet and Disconnected

Here I am again,
shelling out these emotions.
Seems like a commonality by now,
just another statistic in this world.
How sick I've become of these emotions.
They sink in the bottom of my stomach,
eating away at me from the inside.
Love is like a poison,
or is it oxygen?
I can't really remember anymore,
it's too late either way.
Whatever it is,
it's taken over me.
The feeling I get when I see you,
when I'm near you.
It radiates within me every time you come over.
I shell out all this shit onto my blog,
bombarding people with my emotional baggage.
My love knows no bounds,
for you my eternal partner.
Why do I believe this?
This common falsity.
You are not my eternal partner,
you are not my destiny.
If you were,
you ignored your true path.
Over 4 years of pain and suffering.
I withheld these feelings until it was too late.
And now they're rehashed,
fresh like the day they first came over me.
I want to be done with them.
I want to forget them like it never happened.
I want them to be washed away like the sun washes away the moon in the early dawn.
Please god,
take them away from me.....