Wanting. Needing

The tears, oh yes they came.
Dropping out of my eyes like rivers.
The strength increasing as they dropped.
I could have gone for hours,
Buried myself in pity.
But for what goal?
It wouldn't help with anything.
It would only make the pain worse.
So I sit here,
drowning.
My heart is a pit,
And the void isn't filling.
But this is a time for recovery,
To stitch up the wants inside me.
This is a time for healing.
You came upon me like a tidal wave,
Flushing my desires out of me.
I couldn't have this anymore,
and when you left, it killed me.
As I write this,
fighting back the tears.
I only hope that you'll read it,
and understand my pain.
I loved you Katie.
But it's time to move on.
It's time for me to accept,
this fate.
Thank you for all the happiness you brought me,
however short lived it was.
I felt alive.
I felt engaged.
I felt loved.
But it's time to move on.
I have to move on.
So this is my note of recognition,
to seal these emotions away forever.
I only hope the seal doesn't break.....